Why

I just got done listening to Rascal Flatt's song Why (posted at bottom of blog).  It's pretty much where my head has been all day. I found out this morning one of my dearest most bestest friends took her life.  Words can't really seem to come out of an individual, me, who always has so much to say.  All I can say is live life the best you can.  Don't judge people for illnesses we may not see that they have.  Mental illness is one of the most difficult and most lonely. Only those who have truly been to that deep and dark place can even begin to understand...but even then, it's only the Savior that can be the one to save any one going through that personal hell.
Emily, I love you so much. You made my summer so much more endurable.  I don't know what I would have done without you.  I'll never forget you. I remember one Saturday before I was able to get my blankets out, you let me use yours and in so many ways you were always so giving to others.  You were so wise and had so much to offer to the rest of us, but you couldn't see in yourself what the rest of us did. I know you will not have this awful monster in your life anymore.  You have so much strength and I know you will use it in Heaven to bless so many.  We (the best CFC crew ever) will never forget the words of wisdom and love and support you showed us.  I wish we could have another moment together, but I know that's coming in Heaven.

Dearest Emily I love you. I miss you.